Enough with the psychoanalysis, god knows, someone could make a million dollars analyzing what I just wrote but hey I really don't care. That's their gig, I have my own to play.
So I have no money and hellbent on buying this thing. I talk to everyone I know in business. After all the discussions I got a bunch of really good answers. What are You crazy? Come Work for me? This is going to kill you? You can't possibly handle it? You know optimism!!!
Well this is what I was seeing in the mirror at that time, and it was more complicated than that because, I hadn't yet come to terms with where I came from, and what my uncle said and all those things that affest your life!! Right. So maybe I was crazy but then I was really down in the dumps, amd I get a call on a Saturday morning from a really good friend in New Jersey and he makes me talk it out. It is one of the more difficult conversation's I have ever had and one of the most important. He was a business owner, who started his business in a garage in Brooklyn, NY. He had recently, after 25 years sold his business for some astronomical figure. He said to me, "how bad do you want this"? I said man I want this bad and I know I can make it work!! The next 5 words resonate in my brain to this day!!! "How much do you need?" I sat down on the chair in my kitchen and nearly lost it. He was going to back me in this, no questions asked!!! Wow, right! True F'ing story!! So....... on to phase whatever.... Monday I needed to come up with a detailed proposal. I had about 40 hours to get it done. Joe